Smallest and biggest dream

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I am taught and educated and trained to have a mindset of success = study hard,get perfect scores, go to the best uni and then, work under a good pay and become rich. That is my target, yeah, and of course it must be! Any doubt or question raised against this definition of success will be classified as rebellion, disobedience, you name it."You must not think that way!" they said, "that is what a loser/failure will do!" Money is very very important, I totally agree, so it is listed as my top ambition to become wealthy.

But there is this sentiment I feel when I read the National Geographic or look up some random pictures on the net, that my heart somehow beats more rapidly. My fists grip in excitement and the river of blood starts to race down the veins. It is calling me; my spirit and soul belong to, in the wide green field of Mongol, in the mystery of Amazon rainforest! I just can't wait to run, down the hill, round the farmhouse, into the forest; can't wait to jump, into the river, up onto the bridge, high in the bluest of blue sky! I can't wait to tell you how many types of blues inside this sky you see and how amazing is the combination of the different shades of color , how precise is the amount of darkness to provide such solidity, but together with the most accurate amount of light and exposure to cause such enthrall! And to sing with the voices of the mountains, to paint with the colors of the wind!

All I want to do is wander. Take a bag and wear my best clothes, you know, girls are very particular about these, then, off I go with the wind! I want to go to Sahara desert(I really like the idea of San Mao to name her daughter after Sahara), the Niagara fall,  paddle the Pandi River in Papua New Guinea, hike at the Grand Canyon,  jump off the cliff, parachuting etc, the list is forever expanding and of course...fall in love with a handsome gentleman and wear a wedding  gown, well, honeymoon at Greece! And the Aegean Sea!!

You see, what is a life without all these things that you really love to do? Our life is so short and will end someday. There are many youths some even younger than me, have parted this world when they are around my age. This make me see how vulnerable life is.

So, I don't know what will happen afterwards, but my only, only dream is that, when I close my eyes for the one last time, I will have no regret for this life. No regret at all. and leave as signed in the contract of life.

I don't know those who have parted early, I only saw them in news or told by people, but I give you all my best wishes and prayers to you, I pray, pray that you will rest in peace, and in happiness. May the vibrant beauty of your life lives forever in us all.